I changed some things on my last post as I don't want to come across that am mocking my son or that am putting him down.
Brody is an intelligent boy and is such a sweet boy with a cracking sense of humour I love him with all my heart and want to protect him.
The peadtrian believed in me and is referring me to the hospital to do more tests.
If I could get this fear of food and ballons out the way and more help with his communication I would be one happy mammy :-)
I,m so happy I,m getting some help and support and can stop blaming my self and relax abit more.
Louise Brown aka mrsbrownsboys!!!!
Wednesday, 5 June 2013
Update =
Monday, 3 June 2013
My first born and his battle with autism spectrum it's D. Day!!!
Peadtrian assessment in the morning and the biggest headache :-(
I first noticed that something was,nt right with Brody as a baby when he would pull strange faces, and look agitated and me and my husband just thought it was normal development,
Brody would strain his entire body so the blood vessels would appear in his face,
As first time parents we thought he was being silly n funny and making us laugh. We even recorded it,
Brody never made any attempt to be independent, and would never protest or try and do things himself and as he got older he did,nt know how to tell us that he had enough so would scream or cry for example, he was very late at feeding him self.
Brody was breast Fed for 6 months and then ate a normal diet, something's he was abit funny about like things with strong taste or new things and then he got to around 15 months had a nasty stomach bug and was taking into hospital to be checked over and overnight he refused most foods and would be sick if u made him eat something or get him to try something,
Alot of things upset him, from an early age he hated being laid down on his back to change his nappie, hated change, people talking to him or coming into the house, and would get upset over little things and be sick on a number of occations and still does.
Time went on he still didn't talk very much and hated new places, he would scream taking him to sotplay, or to
new environments, being weighed at health center, doctors, swimming ect
Brody would often get upset scream hysterically, run away and be sick violently,
my niece who was 6 at the time instilled the fear of ballons into Brody by popping a balloon in Brodys face at 18 month's old and the fear he has never forgot, obviously my niece was Just little and had no idea that this would instil in his memory
It's got to the point that if he spots one he,ll walk the opposit directions or stop in his tracks, he,ll cry and hide, or want picked up.
Bi rthday parties with friends have stoped, he don't eat the food, terrified of the ballons or the people who dress up or have a conversation.
His love of gates began and so did his obsessions with wheels. now it's
;water, ladders, fire engines, trucks,fences of a certain kind and, he has to touch these gates n things, he knows he should,nt but it's like he has no control and has to go and do it, he will repeatedly talk like a parrot all day the same sentences "don't go in the gardens" which is what I say, not that's it's wrong but incase someone gets angry or he,s attacked by a dog.
His fears now are
;bee,s dogs,food
new places, deep voices ,ballons, most tv channels, taste, textures, hot things
Brody still didn't talk Much but I was,nt worried and suppose nieve when the school asked me if they could refer him to a speech therapist . I said "yes" straight away but was taken back,
I and my husband were so used to reading Brodys body language, we know what he thinks and feels by his actions, without having to ask him out right at the back of my head I knew this was,nt right from the start I knew Brody was,nt right, but we went with what he wanted and the doctors and health visitors assured me it was normal for his behaviour and or was fine. Or to wait for school,
I stoped taking Brody to be weighed, or any social gathering as he was distressed, so was I and people were looking and judging and so I avoided public areas.
I did take Brody to surestart and he loved and it was just a small group, but being down a hill and on my own it, I was also pregnant and so stopedas u got bigger,
Brodys little brother came along and he is a different child ' nornal' he copies Brody and Brody will watch Brannon and sometimes copy, he interacts with Brannon and they play totogether which melts my heart.
Brodys got worse along with his anxiety
His lack of dangers around him is worrying as if he see something he fears he will run across a road to get away from it.
Going to nursery he is making slow progess but them small changes are amazing, he said I lobe you the other night and I cried.
Brody is trying to communicate more, alot more social and speaking better since he started pre -nursery learning about facial expressions and his speech has Defaintly helped, singing nursery rhymes has Def helped too.
Obsession, s have got worse and he seems to invent new ones all the time.
my only support is the school teachers who are my rock, I,ve failed to find any support groups and Iam stressed and worried about my son on a daily basis,
Brody is so sweet and sensitive and you can see he is nervous and on edge, he does not understand something's and so cries and sobs which breaks my heart, he needs help and so do I :-( xxx</p>
Thursday, 30 May 2013
Ohhhh makeup <3
I went and purchased some new makeup, :-o tut tut.
I had some spots appear on my face and felt self conscious like I always do so decided to treat my self.
I was looking for some concealer and wanted something alittle bit more high end.
I looked around for somethin with a reasonable price tag and discovered benefit erase paste :-/
At 17 pounds I didn't think it was a reasonable price, but the packaging and the advice from the sales assistant had me half sold...
So I went and looked around some more, and after reasoning with myself decided to go and buy it...
I still feel guilty now but it will last me for ages.
The erase paste comes in a pink box with a small spatula a little fancy purple pot and instructions.
It's not like the bo..ing or however you spell it from the benefit concealers like they have.
The erase paste seems to sink into your skin and appears pink at first but then settles into your skin colour and removes the redness and other nasties
I like to cover my blemishes, scars and other impressions first with the erase paste then apply my foundation with my stippling brush by real techniques and then go over any imperfections with my brush again
My whole face seems brighter and freasher :-D B-) <3
Thanks for reading :-D x x
Wednesday, 15 May 2013
Monday, 13 May 2013
Make up , makeup <3
Hello, well this week I got my very first professional makeup brush, it's only took me 17 years :-o.
In the past I,ve always bought cheap makeup brushes,
So I thought stuff it I,m gonna treat myself and start buying the higher end makeup brands
YouTube is the blame for this, lol as all the makeup guru,s have made me realise that, yes some makeup is exspensive but it's also looks fantastic and lasts so much longer.
Anyhow I failed to find the beauty blender makeup brush, another makeup item recommend on YouTube so have no idea were I,d find one, if anyone has any idea...(I live in north east of England) then comment down below :-)
So I invested in the real techniques stippling brush from the makeup artist pixwhoo... Sorry no idea hoe to link yet I,'ll try and crop and edit later on.
Anyhow pixwoo are twins on Facebook? Who are makeup artists and they are fantastic, I,be only just discovered them, and they explain things so simply.
They do the real techniques makeup brushes... Or one of them does so I went to boots the chemists and purchased one for £10, which is alot for me Mau I add.
I googked the product and of course silly me their is a video on how to use it as well as an email dress attached to the packaging, which leads to the pixwhoo website and all there videos and stuff
The stippling brush is recommended for use of a BB cream so I used my mayneline one.
Normally this would just slide on my skin and I,d have to use a matte powder to settled it down.
Omg with the stipplong brush I left I went on so easily and sapping it on it gave me extra coverage and a flawless finish and went on I'm seconds.
Am so impressed with the brush and it's amazing that it can have this effect, I also tried my Revlon colourstay foundation and this also gave me great coverage
My next items I must try is some MAC makeup as never tired this before and the urban decay eyeshadow Palette.
I get so excited buying makeup and trying it out, anything that makes me feel good is a bonus
I,ve also been using wrinkle cream as feel so old lately, and trying to diet and failing :-/ :-(
Still one step at a time
In other knews my oldest Brody is doing really well at nursery, he struggles to talk and communicate and so a speech therapist has been to see him and also he is being assessed for ssomething on the autism spectrum, although I think this could be mild, it's his communication that is holding him back I think personally.
He has obsessions that o think once older he cam learn to control and grow out of it, one of hos obsession.s is gates, opening and closing them and touching them
Anuhow it's getting late and I can hardly keep my eyes open
Take care and thanks for reading
Lou xx <3
Wednesday, 8 May 2013
a little about me..... :-D
I love YouTube and the makeup channels, I have a week off work so thought I,d take advantage of making up a blog now and de cluttering my house :-/ I've loved makeup since being a little girl, always stealing my mams bags and sneaking eye shadows and lipsticks and plastering my face with makeup a pair of her heels and my toy pram. But as I got older I had no confidence at all :-( I was quite shy and withdrawn
